i am (obviously and not surprisingly) incredibly stressed lately. i had today off work and spent most of the day doing nothing - trying to relax! i met carl for lunch, and i cleaned. i had an mri of my hip scheduled today and got there early. i was completely fine until it was time to go into the machine.
the tech had taken me back to the machine and positioned my feet pigeon-toed, and tied them together - super comfortable! he started sending me into the machine, and as i was almost fully in, i freaked out and said i needed to come out.
i have no clue what happened - i have had mris before without sedation. i asked him how much further i would be going in - he said i was almost to the point. i asked how long it'd take - he said 35 minutes. i asked if he could push me in, and then take me back out, and i'd let him know if i could handle it or not. he did that, and i realized it'd be okay.
he sent me back in, started the machine, and turned on the music (no country music!). and for the next 35ish minutes, i focused on relaxing. the horror of the mri machine suddenly put a lot of things into perspective for me. here i am freaking out about 189 other things, when i need to focus on what really matters: myself.
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